i recieved an email from kenny chua at http://www.malaysiaresorts.com.my promoting their tour packages. "Phuket Bali ,Redang ,Perhentian Mata Fair Promotion---From RM258 only"
admist very unsuccessfully trying to finish mugging >1 chapter a day, resisting the urge to go shopping and having to return my delifrance uniform(and going all the way to pandan loop to claim back my deposit), it's quite amusing that kenny chua actually thinks i have the time to go on a holiday.

so it's been 2 days since the "holiday" started. i'm happy to announce that i finally got my butt off the couch to do some exercising at amore. my package is expiring soon and i still have 7 more sessions. opps.

nus open house on saturday was pretty useful. not that i'm any clearer about where i'm headed. but at least i can make a more informed choice about what to study in future.

romp at power station was okay. benny&samuel's group got 1st runner up. the group that got first was really good. i wouldn't call this my virgin clubbing trip cause...well i didnt even bother dancing at all. but it was my virgin trip to a club. and it wasnt anything extraordinary. power station was pretty much everything i envisioned a club would be. i don't hate it. but im not lovin' it either. like my dad said, there's a right age for everything. i'll have plenty of time to go clubbing when im older no?

there's also this thing that's taking up a lot more time than expected. it'd better turn out good.

much love from me and study hard.

http://tv.peekvid.com/ this site has like everything. but the quality of the video is pretty bad. =( nonetheless, it works for wasting time when ure not in the mood to study. or if u have 4 tests next week and countless tutorials and dno where to start. ah well.

post df blues are easing. which is good i guess. but i still cant wait for ppp. the flowers i got lasted a lot longer than the ones i recieved during previous productions. hmm.

zhangfan's feeling quite moody these days and i dno what to say to make her feel better. for all it's worth, i'm always here for you! for you to throw tantrums and rant at. cause our friendship's special like that. :D and im sorry i didnt notice you were feeling sad. =/ too absorbed with my own little problems i guess. happens too often. >.<
as we talked on the phone, she asked if i've ever failed in life. honestly, no. but failure is subjective i guess. i've failed countless tests. but that's not failure. i've always succeeded in doing a good job as long as i put my heart and soul into it. and even if i didn't succeed, i wouldn't call it failure as long as i've tried my best and isnt that the most important thing? i don't fear failure. but i do fear disappointment. when i was younger i'd be so confident of every test. and when i got 99 instead of 100 i'd feel disappointed. and then i kinda stopped hoping. well kind of. i just went through life not expecting much. i study and do things without expecting anything in return. so long as i've done my best i guess my consience is clear. and so far, this theory/philosopy has never backfired on me. i've always gotten the results i deserved, sometimes even better than i deserved. well anyway im thinking a lot of us don't actually know what failure is. like we don't know what it's like to fail. life's been too smooth sailing i guess.
as we grow older we tend to find less and less reasons to smile. or rather our happy moments < troubled moments. cause we know so much more. coming to rj has opened my eyes to a whole new breed of people. and hearing about my mum's office politics just leaves me wondering if i'll ever be in the comfort of trustworthy and reliable friends in the working world. i guess ignorance is bliss. who would think about such pessimistic thoughts when u were young and spent ur day aceing tests in school, going home and binged on chocolates without growing fat? so im just really thankful for the friends i have. i'm lucky like that i guess. i need to learn to treasure the people around me more. <3
life can be so draining at times. or maybe it's our own fault. if we didnt desire a perfect life, maybe it'll be easier to be happy. cause we need to know when wanting something is wanting too much. and sometimes we need to realise that the things we want aren't making us happy. and we should simply make a choice to let go or bear with it, and then move on with life. cause that's the way things are. so i make it a point to only do things i enjoy(except studying of course since it's not really a choice) my brother needs to learn that things won't always go his way. my mum needs to learn to forget and move on and live with the decisions she made. i need to learn when to stop doing everything i enjoy so i've time to do tasks i don't enjoy but have an obligation to complete. we all need to learn that we can't have everything in life i guess. and more importantly, we ought to learn that the only thing that's really within our control is our ability to make the best out of what we have.
you have to accept whatever comes, and the only important thing is that you meet it with the best you have to give -eleanor roosevelt

so much babbling. im contemplating publishing this.

i havent blogged in the longest time. okay cant really remember all the things that have been hapenning though.

vday was pretty fun. sab shalom yuru and i made like those fererro on sticks for the entire class and it was really pretty. (:(: and tonghin chinnam and jeremy got all the class' girls heartshaped balloons and blew up like 100 balloons to fill up the entire classroom. (:(:

i remember going for brunch with fiona at marmalade pantry and it was GOOD. :D:D had the peanut butter and banana fried sandwich which is to-die-for. went with her for her hair cut at essensuals. i wna cut there too. (:

oh and i met weijean too! went for her IJ funfair. (: rj should prolly have sth like that. got to see elbert too and talked a bit. :D:D

take5 turned out okay. my only complain was being under the hot sun. sam&benny's was of course the highlight and i'm glad they pulled it off. :D:D streeter's pride. haha. teletake was a lot of fun too even though we didnt win and all. (: it was cool having like cr and etc cheering us on hehe.

chinese new year. we didnt have reunion dinner at my house this time round though. had it at some restaurant at expo. the food was not bad but it was so early (5.30pm) so i wasn't exactly hungry. went visiting which wasnt as bad/as boring as expected. maybe it's cause this time we spent minimum time loiterring around each house. watched ghostrider with the cousins on day 2. and just follow law with my family on day 3. OH YAH jeremy changrong wenliang elaine tonghin came over to my house on day 3. (:(: we just like sat around and didnt do much but eat. heh. and i spent my free time watching 花樣少年少女 on youtube. evad if you're reading this, i think im really liking your wu zun guy. (: anyway the whole show is really funny though the acting's not really there. haha. even my buddy watches it hoho. sadly they cut like a lot from the comic lah.

and now for the highlight of the past 2 weeks-DRAMAFESTE. i have so much to say about it and i dont really know where to start.
firstly, it was AWESOME. not just last night, but the entire experience. like seriously. i wish every single rp production could feel as magical as MTDF. but i guess that's not gna happen.
mtdf this year didnt have kraton in it, but there was still a committed crew and quirky cast whom i'm gna miss so so much now that it is over. (: i love how mtdf is always such an amazing experience of bonding with the cast and the crew. it's always been so much fun attending rehearsals cause of auyong daryl and brian are just crazy that way. and sarah's sarah and alyssa's cute. (: and this year's crew is honestly the best ever. everyone works together so well and they are all so committed and all.(: it's been so much fun working with them and savouring our 45 seconds of fame lol.(: i love the costumes and make up ppl for they did such an amazing job and i'm glad i got to know them through df. ppl like alexis and michelle are the sweetest ever. and Matthew is love and Isaac totally deserved to win best direction! and i wna thank William and cherie and bernard for all their help with pub and the board! (:(: and all my random classmates who helped out for they never fail to make me feel so blesed for being in 6A. best actor for brian and best direction was a plus and ended off last night on a high note. (: so yes congrats to them both. i'm really glad we kicked ass despite tech screw up on fri night.
i'm pretty sad it's over cause i was really beginning to enjoy rehearsals and getting to know everyone better. like i finally got keanyung and kialiang's names right! and yesterday's camwhoring session was a blast. i guess words alone cant signify how much this experience means to me. i just hope we all manage to keep in touch and there'll be PPP 1,2,3,4,5,6,7......
dramafeste could very possibly be my last drama production ever, seeing as how rp college play could clash with dance night. and if it really is, i'm glad it's mtdf 07 cause i couldn't ask for any more out of a production.
much love to isaac zhengjie william matthew daryl brian sarah auyong alyssa rachel alex bennett jarrod keanyung kialiang juanhe felicia woonhian mark nivi avonne crunch nivi jenny alexis aprilia clara taiboon michelle tanvi cherie chloe bernard for making this such a worthwhile experience. (:
and to sarah and cat, you guys pulled it off. (:
now i'm off to suffer for post production blues as i try to complete the overdue tutorials.

might be going for amore tmr morning if my dad can give me a lift to sch after for litweek meeting.
currently doing research for pictures and it's quite fun. (: some works on deviantart are really goood.
anyway im feeling a bit like a slop from not exercising in a week plus.
and i havent touched chocolates in a week too. which is all quite saddening. but at least i have my voice back. :D i hope i can fully recover from my sore throat. it's such a pain eating yong tau fu everyday. especially when i dont like tofu and stuff and end up buying vege only. and i realise i have a huge appetite. cause i cant eat biscuits these days im gobbling an apple in between lessons and i still feel hungry before lunchtime. >.< and i havent actually lost any weight which is quite bad cause i rmb that chinese new year's coming soon and i really dont want the relatives whom i see once a year to comment that i've grown even fatter. and im not sure if i can fit into my new year clothes.
speaking of clothes i havent gone shopping in a month. it's not much of an achievement. but i kinda feel like i need to go shopping soon. like next week. oh and i need a haircut. and stuff i bought from asos got lost in the mail. but jan's clutch which i bought in the same spree arrived. =((
went to watch the singapore vs thailand match on wednesday. it was quite an experience to say the least.
another week is over. and it struck me that so is January. time flies. even if you are not having fun.
the next week is expected to be pretty busy. what with four tests.

my joy-o-meter reads 4 on a scale of 10 because...
i've lost my voice.
my throat hurts and i couldnt eat pizza today while my class and junior class were eating.
my stomach hurts from contracting when i cough. which is an average of 20 times in an hour.
i've math assignment due tmr.
organic chem test which i've barely studied. (7 chapters?!)
a trillion undone tutorials as usual. (they didnt use to bother me this much last year. guess i'm really on my way to becoming some model student)
i've been thinking about lit week.

on a happier note, mtdf poster has been completed. (:
cip on sat was quite boring. but Happy Birthday was a really nice movie to watch. it's so sad though. =((( but it was quite funny that all the other girls were crying haha.

watched the 9pm movie on channel U just now. the ending was like so sad. =( i would cry but im just not the type who tears easily.

spent the entire weekend eating sleeping and doing math tutorial 11A1.
i've still got 11A2, physics tutorial 14, chem tutorial 15 and CHEM TEST ON JC1 CHAPTERS. =( all thanks to me asking ms tang whether i needed to go for remedial. rahh.

mtdf meeting tmr plus RP meeting from 5pm to 7+++pm.

changrong spent half the weekend doing chem tutorial. i wonder if i will take as long.

met janice yesterday. went for step and sculpt. sadly the instructor was Jet instead of Sharon.

Joyca came over. (: but i ended up sleeping instead of playing host.

ahh well. gotta wake up in 5 hours. i'm done replying emails. goodnight all :D