o well. my reults are like shit. n teachers are tabulating marks for the report book liao. arh! diedie. haiz. summre all these while i've been assuring daddy tt i'm doin ok in sch n he trusts mi. wait till he sees all the Cs n im dead.

erm...yest he was juz callin mi while i was a orchard. so he gave dis prep talk abt mi goin out often n usin com n nt studyin. it's onli partially true k. but wadeva. den he sae he wna ban mi frm com or install sum password or sth... yea. anyway, last nite i was happily usin e com. den i decided to act smart n delete the viruses tt have been lying dere since 2eva. apparently i wasn't too successful. in fact i lyk totally screwed up. i prob deleted sum impt file cuz e com was goin all weird n cld nt b restarted. lala. so i was upset, bt since it was late i decided to go 2 bed n brood ova it 2dae.

yepz...n rite nuw i can blog. why? bcuz e smart mi fixed e com. hah. actly it was no big deal. juz put e cd n click "next" or "enter" n let e com cure itself. o well. im still happy my computer is here 2 stay. my bro actly told my daddy abt it k.(before it was fixed) i was intending 2 tel mi dad on lyk...sunday or sth...afta i atempted 2 fix. n my bro was all jolly that i was gna gt it frm dad. bt mi dad din realli scold mi, juz sae wanted mi 2 pay fer e repair. bt nuw tt i fixed e com...all's well. =) i rock n my bro juz sux =(

erm...saw this at my junior, tristan's blog. hu gt it frm audrey [sec2]. =)


ThE KiW

There used to be times,
Where students could run and play.
But all that ended,
When Kiw came to stay.

With sky-high pants,
And a BIG black mole.
Not forgetting his shirt,
Which was tucked in WHOLE.

He walked around school,
Checking our hair.
And earrings too,
"They must be a pair!"

"Shirts that are tucked out,
Must not be too long.
Another time again,
And you are gone."

Speeches always end,
With his"Ting de dong ma?"
Students so angry,
They ask "Where's his car.........."

Wherever you go,
He seems to be there.
'Coz he's the eagle,
And you're the hare.

So when the day comes,
And Kiw retires.
He'll find his car,
With four flat tires.

Let's just bear with him,
He'll leave someday.
Then we can run free,
Is that okay?? =)

erm. i dunno wad to think of feel. prob disapointment cuz kscope audition din go well. but yea, i guess all the bonding that happened while we were preparing for our item meant a lot more than getting in or not. but the dispointment n guilt is still there...like i could have done better...tried harder..

erm. dis wk has been much betta den e past few. mi tests were big flops bt i'll get by. nothing significantly happy happened bt still im contented tt nth too bad happened. hah. yea.

i don't like being jealous. it is evil. yet i am so irritated with myself being this green eyed monster. why? i just need to get over with myself.

ermz. shiyi bought mi a notebk. i juz wna sae a big fat thankyou 2 her. heh. den tt tym16 April was minxuan's bdae bt i nv wish her. im sho sho sory. [mx n sy r mi bez frenz frm pri in case u dunno] yea. think tt's it.

erm. 2dae mr lu make us stay back after school to clean the classroom. kinda impatient waiting so long for his arrival. he was a lil demanding in a way. but somehow we are also in the wrong. i guess, i dun fele that much anguish since eds sessions don't start so early.

-it's a materialistic world...why can't it be less realistic...-

2dae is a no big deal kinda dae. except im feelin a lil down...got a lil emptiness. darno y. sigh. i nid 2 do sth productive. bleah. dreadin monday.

lalala. i decided to blog about mi week, starting from my taekwondo's test on sunday.

I was sooo blur k. lyk i din noe whre to go. luckily i met gabriel! yep. he rox. den i dun know howta tie that belt. ahah. n Sir nicely tied it for mi. he evn had to kneel down, cuz i tink im too short. =P yar. den i was the first batch to go up dere. n i was lyk...tall. i was twice the height of evry1 else takin white belt gradin cuz dey were all young kiddies. so pai seh kaez. bleah. bt i tink it turned out qte ok. i hope i passed. =) afta the grading, i waited for my cousin, who was takin her black belt test. hah. dey are soo pro k. yar. den afta tt, my cousin, joyce wanted to wait for her friend. lalala. so we waited. den tink sir saw mi wif her. den he was lookin at mi weirdly. afta evrything, he came 2 ask lyk why i was learning at diff places from mi cousin. at first he tot we were frenz. den afta when he noe we're cousins, he sae we look alike. O_o like...i don't think we do. lol. den tt nite i went to CO concert bt left durin the interval.

monday
hmm...lemme think...o ya! monday afta sch had eds dance session for kscope. bt in e end din practise much. den mi, wailuum, zhangfan, muthu and mathew went to kfc together. den joked and gossip. hah. i miss the whole "kfc" sessions we used to have every saturday. it's fun k. lol.

tuesday
i went to eat lunch wif shiyi. hah. den we were tokin loh. reminisced abt pri sch stuff k. i concluded tt she has a much much betta memory than me cuz i onli gt vague impressions of stuff. hah. den we ate at burger king. den went to bedok library. she left at about 4++. den i stayed till 5++ den went for my physics tution. tried mi best to study cl tt night.

wednesday
it was a BAD dae. to start of, both tests sucked. i cldn't gt a single decent answer outta mi brain juices or what not. hmph. o ya, den tt cl test tt tym, mr lu was listin out the ppl he felt was not...erm...he2 ge2. den by monday muz change if nt nid 2 write 10 jian baos k. n i was one of dem so i was lyk...wth. n den he oso listed out those hu hafa read 2 zuo wen evrydae n copi 2 evrywk cuz deir chinese r too weak. n i was one of dem. im lyk...pro lar. >< anyway, i tink i whined enuf abt tt dae to practically anyone that bothered to listen.

thursday
sports dae! lol. i thot it was pretty fun apart frm the sun. the clouds came for less than a min n drifted away. =( the atmosphere wasnt as gd as it was in sec1 as i rmb 1h was cheerin lyk crazy. haha. anyway, i din really gt a bad sunburn cuz e smart mie rmbed to out sunblock. yepz.

friday
wich is 2dae. erm. tink e onli significant event was eds audition. i tink we weren't doin tt well bt tt's ok. hah. den we were suppose to smile. gosh..i was lyk...laughin instead of smilin. cuz yeetien was smilin at us n tt made mi luf. =p o ya, the atlantis princess dance frm the other grp was niceeeee. =D haha. yar. afta tt i went to buy chem n physics assessment bk cuz i've decided tt mi results suck too much n i nid help.


wheww. tt was my week. haha. erm. abt wadeva sad stuff...i dun feel tt whiney abt it anymre. wich is gd cuz i find miself irritatin when im whiney. i wun sae i've totally gotten over it. bt i noe tt im nt tt affected by it. not tt senstive to the stuff revolving arnd it. im tryin 2 make e bez out of wad i haf n tt's e easiest wae to be happi aint it? to be contented. =) at least i've gt preciously amazing frenz n nice parents. i noe im kinda emotionally unstable cuz one second im happi n e nxt im depressed...bt wad's a gurl gotta do?
btw, notice tt i din mention a ting abt mi bro cuz he sux k. it's gna take 4eva b4 im actually willin 2 engage in a proper convo wif him cuz he is darn irritatin n annoyin. i noe kinship is impt n all...bt still...

haiz. i really shld b studyin fer mi cl tez nuw. or im prepared to fail. bt...dere's much on my mind.

you know all the philosophical stuff people sae. things happen fer a reason. face evry challenge bravely. blablablah. well. it's easier said than done. *sigh. maybe i was too lucky. to not have to face all the awful stuff ppl face. i noe tt dese small things aren't suppose to make mi collasp. n i noe i wun. bt im tired of trying. tryin to make things betta. n facin the disappointment when tings dun change fer the better. sumtyms i feel lost. nt noeing wad i want, or wad 2 do 2 get wad i want. n i feel scared. of the conequences of the lil tings i do. im tired of guessing. of all the logical thinking involved when i decide to do or nt 2 do sumting. so wad if tings happen 4 a reason? i dun care abt reason. i juz wan...closure. n embrace life. hah. im tryin. n tryin. yt i noe evry laughter is juz a front to hide all the displeasure. im tryin 2 b as optimistic as possible. bt dere r juz tings 2 bring mi down. i nid a break. i wan a break. juz sleep a couple of daes away. n maybe one morning i'll wake up and really b able to "not care" n b happi with wadeva life throws at mi. fer nuw...it's juz exhaustion...yep

n yvonne...we shall jia you 2gether. cheer up~

erm. 2dae's eds was pretty alright. ain't it owaes.

tommorrow is taekwondo's grading so wish me luck.

im gna hafta start studyin fer nxt wk's tez since i realy wun haf much tym. mon gt eds so mite reach hum kinda late n feeling exhausted. tues is e only sumwhat free dae fer mi 2 study 2 whole tests. chinese itself is enuf 2 kill me. hah. summore thurs afta sports meet im goin out den at nite gt tkd. heh. so cant go hum 2 study geog tez.

anywae, nuw im alone at hum wif mi grandpa. he's in his rm watching tv. mi granny n mummi brought mi bro n cousin out fer dinner. woohoo. a night without tt irritatin bro at hum 2 create chaos. lol. kaeee. i shall go eat mi dinner. den shall start 2 study chinese if i m nt tempted by dis com or e tv. yepz. o ya, changed e layout. e pic nuw lyk vry small hor. bleah.. hu cares. =) byeee~

hmm...would you choose to pretend that nothing is happening? or would you try to do something about it?
well, i thought of choosing the latter. but...k. im scared. of the consequences of doing something about it. *sighh

ok. i shall b chirpier cuz mi blog is depressin. heh. erm. taekwondo was fun duh. yea. o yar, 2dae after sch i wanted 2 go hum. as in mi mum wun lemme go anywhre. so left alone. den on mrt. was smsing charlene. in the end met her at pasir ris and we ate. =) yea. i wld haf thot i was lonely. when i was on the mrt. bt apparently nt havin e whole whole as mi fren doesn't mean i dun haf any1. thx charlenee.

haiz. i shld b at taekwondo nuw. budden nt feelin up to it so nv go. =( shall go fer tmr's sesson. i tink i shall hurry finish geog n get mi slp. cuz laz nite dunno y started crying juz b4 going to bed. so ended up slping at 1 plus. haiz. silly mi. i realli hope i can start doing well in mi results. it's so demoralising, that i cant rmb when it was tt i passed mi laz tez. haiz.

i cant rmb when...prob yest morn? or sth. i prob sprained mi left feet. it's lyk my feet the top part is pain when i wok. seems to be gettin worst. den 2dae eds dance session i jump up n down lyk kinda pain. dunno. bt the pain is bearable. i was tinkin maybe nxt sat go c doc. lol. lyk so stupid to drag so long hor. budden i sunday taekwondo grading. den i scared go c him den he bandage it up den huw i take gradin? n i dowan go during wkdaez...later he bandage up den i go sch hafta wear sandals. anyway, i feel pathetic. it's lyk mi elbow juz ok den nuw mi feet. n i dun evn noe huw i sprained? bleah.

this girl has had betta daez

today was pretty alright i guess. as usual. lol. afta sch went to pasir ris lib the cafe dere 2 eat wif shiyi n charlene. den shiyi left. toked wif charlene a while. den she left. so i juz sat dere n studied maths. den 5plus went fer tuition.
tmr havin maths tez. die.

yep. so anway tt was mi borin dae. huw was urs?

for some reason or another, gareth gates' "say it isn't so" has been playing in my head.

2dae was an okay dae. eds was rather tiring. bleah.

it's amazing how my hopes get brought up...and diminished to nothing the next second.



sometimes...i wish it was that easy to let go...

hmm. yay. it's sunday nuw. den it's monday. darno. kinda nt realli lking forward to sch reopen. i haven started studyin. haiz. i realised that a lotta things arent easy fer mi 2 get over with. bt i noe i'll lar. hah. cuz i go rnd tellin mi gd frenz 2 cheer up, obviously i myself muz oso b happi too. hah. hopefully i'll b havin a better week....

wee! i woke up at 11pm this morning. wich meant tt i had more than enuf slp. wich meant tt i was in a good mood! haha.

den i was supposed to meet Shi Yi, mi pri6 exclassmate cum curretn dhs schmate cum bez fren, at bugis mrt at 2pm. lol. than being the slow coach i am. i arrived at 2.30pm or so. haha. ok. den went to buy min xuan's (my exclassmate cum bez fren) bdae prezzie. den afta tt, at 3, minxuan came liao. we gave her her present. tink she was realli touched. =)
we went to eat at sakae sushi. since both mi n shiyi finished our lunch at home, we din eat buffet. so we had the ala cata thingy. (dunno huwta spell lar) den it's lyk, i tink the waiter thot we eatin buffet. so he smartly came by and collected most of the plates, leaving onli 4? lol. den it's lyk, when billing, we ounly paid the price for the 4 plates and our dessert loh. wahahaa. so shuang. haha. den we took neoprints. i realli missed hannging out wif the 2 of them alot. *hugs*

den evening hor, i went to c the chinese physician. cuz elbow lyk sprained lar. den he did his "thing". that was lyk..damn painful?! i mean...realli damn painful. den i teared lar. ugh. haiz. at first i cldn't realli straighten. nuw afta seeing the doc, he bandage fer mi. den arm cannot bend. so tink the bandage too tight. heh. tmr gt dance session. dunno huwta get pass it. hah.

hmm. life's depressing lately. well, at least that's what i thought. but come to think of it? there's always "a blessing in disguise". we all know things happen for a reason. try as hard as i may, i may never figure truely figure out the reasons behind some things. but my guess may always be right. they say you have to lose something to learn to treasure it. I've lost something. and i learnt that maybe it wasn't that important. i saw truth. and that was enough. and i'm thankful that i knew just who exactly will stand by me when i'm down. that's what true friends are for. one true friend...yes just one...is enough to make up losing 10 unreal friends. so yes, the blessing is that i've found YOU. o, and i'm surprised to have learnt so much through one incident, but crying is actually really good? i never dared to cry. [i seldom cry, not never cry.]uh-uh. i just didn't see the point in exhausting and dehydrating myself. but yea. if you're sad, and don't know how to react, you just start to burst out crying. you feel better afterwards? i don't know why i could just walk away and start crying, but i did. i'll never know why. and i can never figure out why i cried over something that wasn't worth it. but yes, maybe after you cry. you're less stressed. you think better.

kaez. enuf of preaching. lol. erm. Monday isn't very worth blogging about except i had eds after school. Tuesday hor, Social Studies lesson, Mrs Tan felt that our class was too noisy. So she switched the rows. I sat with Chan Yong Sheng. the guy who transfered to gep. he turned out ok. hah. i was lyk, "why are you so quiet". den he started to talk and talk. haha. so farni. n summore. he's sooo smart. i duno wad he tokin abt. bt he was qte patient wif mi. hmm. Wednesday ar...nth much loh. den 2dae, had eds. den went fer taekwondo. hah. yea. tt's all.