some memories just come back to haunt you.
and sometimes when you're hurt, the pain never goes away.
at least it's easy for me to act like nothing is wrong.




(:

There's this thing about describing 9 of the most impt ppl in your life without actually saying their names..got it from aggy, who prolly got it from friendster. well, here's mine.

1. you both have tried your best to give me everything i've wanted in my fifteen years of life. though i dont say or show it that much, im very thankful. sorry for all the times i've been rude to you or disappointed you. i love you both loads!

2. i do appreciate having both of you in the household, helping out with everything and resolving our disputes. i used to think that you doted on didi more but that was just immature thinking. you're loved by me though i never say it.

3. we grew up together so i guess you both could almost be considered sisters. from playing with barbie dolls to going shopping together. it's so much fun being with you girls and let's hope our cousin-hood continue to blossom. hah.

4. the dodo, bestfriend, fellow tai-tai of e future, 6 pointer, shopping mate, neoprint maniac, lesbian cardholder owner, starbucks lover, mugger, long phone converstation buddy ETC. we share so many fabulous memories no? i heart you. stay sweet and silly and laughable! (:

5. my other two besties. you both bring so much joy into my life! i'll die laughing at your jokes about scaring the daylights outta me. and you about my horrible handwritting/hair/everything. and the awful nicknames im given. blablablah. (: much love.

6. it doesnt matter that the three of us dont meet up that often because when we do we're as close as ever no? (: thanks to you both for being so thoughtful and sweet and lovable. bestfriendsforlife.

7. eds
-you who claims that you spend most of your life waiting for me cause im always late for the appointments.
-you who is my fellow chinadoll.
-you who is my king with a vast vocab and general knowledge and a good confident and is proven to be crazy.
-you who is a good listener and a talented dancer.
-you who dotes on me so so much.
-you who is my mummie.
-you who was my classmate for 2 years. my B1.
-you who's my bestfriend. and is always ready to give me a pat on my shoulder when im down.
-you who's bimbotic and needs to put on weight.
-you who lends me inuyasha and is always there to help.
-you whom i cant describe but is equally impt.
-you who suans ppl too much but is relatively nice.

8. all the other eds members. syfdance05. the sec2 dance juniors. the twin. the dear who visited uk.

9. 2H'03. fourA'05. you who havent played pool with me in forever. you who's sitting beside me in class, loves green, loves salmon sushi.

blacks whites green, jiayou for 130405!

im worried. i wish there was dance 24/7 or something. so we can work things out. clarify everything. get into the character. perfect it. "if you......, maybe......a silver." well. so maybe not. im a pessimist and to be realistic we're gna get a bronze. :'( so we aimed for gold with honours.[u are probably sneering] and we didnt try hard enough. and that sucks. and i hope whatever that we are trying to do now will salvage the situation. and what else can i do but put in my best for possibly the last session of dance tmr. and hope for the best on wed. and if you wna come up to me and say we are lousy and should count ourselves lucky if we get a bronze and not cop, i'd rather you not say anything. cause it hurts. when ppl arent supportive and worst, when they put you down.

syf's next wed.
hopefully we'll do well.
(: