i realise that in life people come and go and what's left behind is usually a memory of something that you wished you had held tighter on to. and it sucks to have to move on and eventually have that memory fade away, simply because you get so busy you just stop thinking, so much so that someday you may forget what it was like and acknowledge that things just wont ever be the same. that some friendships were forged due to circumstances and arent meant to keep going strong as much as you want them to. that as we all get involved in our new lives and spend less time with one another, we just drift apart, drifting closer to new people, who will eventually drift away from us still. and yet again and again i tell myself that i wont let this die off. and how often do i succeed. i miss this and that.

my mum threw away my dhs uniform today. =/ i dno what to feel.

i have a huge bruise on my right knee cause i tripped while climbing up the stairs. it's very fugly. and freaky. and disgusting.

lost my pencil case when i went back for chem mock lecture test on fri during the hols. (as expected i flopped the test.) anyway i managed to find the pencil case in the lt on tuesday. but that was after i bought new pens already. =/

left my wallet at the canteen table. found out later that the miserable 10bucks i had inside got stolen.

hey! i cant believe it's the march hols and a whole term has passed. time really does fly and jc life is indeed more hectic than secondary school life. i just hope it won't pass us by without us noticing what we may be missing out on and all. (: anyway it's been a great term in rjc!
my og rocks and though sometimes i feel like we are sort of drifting apart, i know it's inevitable and im just hoping that a couple of og outings will make us feel together and all again..
my class has been amazing...i started off thinking it paled in comparison to 4a and 2h but it's so untrue! i just hope we continue to grow closer. (:
MTDF has been a most memorable experience and everyone who participated in it just made everything seem even more perfect!
chinese dance was fun while it lasted and it was really cool to have known all the nice girls in there. anyway by a stroke of luck i got pass street dance auditions so im in street dance now hmm.

fri night
fri night crashed tj's orientation night. first time i crashed a jc huh. it was pretty cool. watched kenny's band perform and they are really quite good. tj has like more unique cheers than rj and somehow they seem to have more school spirit?

eds camp
on sat night i went down to dhs cause there was eds camp going on. sadly, the school gate was LOCKED. and i waited outside for 12975835996mins for claire to arrive. the juniors came and like talked to me through the school gate (i felt like i was in jail or something and they were the visitors). when claire finally arrived we went on to brainstorming on a few ways of entering the school. we wanted to climb the gate but apparently there were cameras around and we didnt want our juniors to get into trouble or anything. so we demanded requested to speak to the teachers..mrs vora and ms kheng and some new tcher hmm. anyway they wanted a consent form blah blah blah and finally we said we'll call our parents to talk to them and give their consent over the phone. then elbert arrived and his dad gave consent too, not without asking mrs vora on her opinion on whether innova or acjc was better? cause apparently elbey wants to stay in innova but his dad wants to pull some strings and get him into acjc hmm. anyway poor elbert got chased out of the house cause his relatives came to stay and his parents want to give them the room to sleep in so he either sleeps in the living room or come for eds camp and sleep on thin sleeping bags!
after getting into the school and failing terribly to scare our juniors during the nightwalk, we went to the classroom and me claire elbert just did a lot of chit chatting and eventually fell asleep. the following morning had breakfast at macs with them and then i went home, bathed and went back dhs.
waited a good 40mins for everdearest muthu at aljunied mrt cause we were taking 158 together. i swear i wanted to kill him for being so late. and he had the cheek to say that he spent the last four years waiting for me when we go to sch together hur hur.
anyway met matthew and eunice and yeetien too (: and all of them sang their sch songs and did their sch cheers and all hmm. then we messed around with some water game the juniors were playing and got a bit wet and all. went back to the classroom and played taboo which was so uberly exciting and so much fun! wailumn finally came and i had to leave to go to sinni's house! =( but anyway i love my darling eds mates so much; sometimes there is so much more to life than getting gold with honours for syf and being in a glorious cca.

PPP
took a cab to sinni's house and the driver wasnt sure how to get there i had to look at a map and direct him or something. it's times like this i feel like a genius and thankful that i took geog or something. anyway i was going sinni's house for moortarbert dramafest post production party/sleepover (mtdf ppp)! how very fun it was! haha. so i reached her huge and posh house and went up to the rooftop where everyone was eating the very delicious korean food that was prepared. (:
when we were eventually done we went down to the living room and sat around watching TRL and bewitched that gavin brought. it's a nice show. (: and then we played the 99 game and zhongjimima. it was like uberly fun with everyone doing such horrid forfeits and samjo was so evil for thinking of most of the crazy dares (: i got off easily cause gavin and i ended up breaking some plate that belonged to sinni's mum by accident when we were about to do our dare.
then we watched brokeback mountain. i feel like i didnt give this movie enough credit. but i was sitting on the floor under sinni's thick blankets and it was horribly unconfortable and i was all figety and kept dozing off since it was 2 in the morning and i didnt get much sleep the previous night.
anyway after the movie we went to sinni's sister room and squeezed on the beds in a rather uncomfortable yet cosy manner and it was all nice and warm i guess and we talked a whole lot of crap and nonsense till almost 6 when issac was the first to sleep and me and shuan went out to sleep. i slept on the couch while he slept on the carpet.
woke up the following morning to the sound of the tv and i realised shuan jonk shumin sinni were watching tv downstairs. went to brush my teeth and ate toast for breakfast. realised that matthew had left early in the morning for his odac camp. i have no idea how he's gna survive seeing as how he got less than 6 hours of sleep. watched a bit more of bewitched. (: then went to see the dramafest pictures. those taken by photog werent particularly good i guess.
then we went to sinni's room and bumped around. which was a whole lot of fun though all we were doing was talking more nonsense. and then we watched crash which was so amazing i wna watch it again! it was just so uberly nice and it totally deserved best motion picture of the year. i almost cried when the girl got 'shot'! and the whole film was so full of irony and so beautiful. i have no idea why it's m18 though; but everyone should watch it. :D
and then it was time to go home and when we were waiting at the busstop, chengchai samjo issac and george most intelligently decided to play badminton hmm. and then we reached angmokio mrt station and then sinni george shaun samjo and i bid farewell to cc. and then they all got off at bishan. and then it was just me left. and that pretty much marks the end of ppp. i really do hope there'll be more PPPs to come and like this whole friendship/connection amongst all of us will stay forever cause it shows that there was way much more to dramafest then we expected (: who would have thought?


had dinner with my family today yesterday. i can barely remember the last time i ate with them. i dno but life seems to be passing by too quickly no? like im always so busy with everything hmm. like tomorrow today i'll have to go for lunch at anghee's house with eds and all and then rush off for class bbq. tmr i'm going out with meryl in the afternoon and then i have og dinner. fri i have chem mock lecture test in the afternoon so i'll prob spend the whole day studying. and sat and sun im free for now but i wna go out with fiona and weijean and val and aggychew and shiyi. and mummy. and i need time to think of bday ideas for aggy. HMM cause she has proclaimed on her nick when her bday is and it's just so impossible to ignore. (: and cause i love her so. yet life is so much fun despite the busi-ness of it all. except that daddy doesnt like me going out too much heh.

and i really dno if i shld drop chem and take lit. i know i like lit more. at least i think i do. but if lit ends up as a subject that requires me to memorise 4books or something i know i'll just end up hating it. and from what i heard, it's very difficult to score A for lit. as for chem, i know for a fact that im not fond of it and i've been failing all the tests so far which goes to show that i wont excel in it. so seeing as how i'll score a C for both subjects, the only factor left for consideration should be my interest no? i wish i could be one of those people who boast that they follow their heart and take whatever that interests them, do whatever they enjoy. but i guess im not. and if i do change subj, i will have to leave so6A. sigh.

and thankyou for reading till here i know it's hopelessly long it's just that having a blog is like having a diary and you just want to remember every single detail of your life by penning(in this case, typing) it down, so that someday, you can remind yourself just what you've lived and are living for.
p.s. i spent a good two hours typing this!

orientation two!

okay i have to say that the activities on day one were pretty boring...a lot of stoning in the hall and watched shakespear in love for the 'carnival' while other ogs played games cause we chose not to. but after that we had sleepover at belinda's house and it was great fun! nothing wild or crazy, everything just felt homey and comfy and all. :D and i got to wake up at 645 in the morning how cool is that i wna stay at thomson!

and batchgive on the second day felt really meaningful. i went to this old woman's house at toa payoh and it was actually nicely furnished and all...as in it wasnt like very dirty or untidy though the furniture was really simple. so the woman was like telling us how she has rheumatism but cant get proper treatment in a hospital cause it is really expensive, which made me realise that we really do need to plan for our old age because as much as money may not necessarily buy us health it is still essential. and she was really shy and sweet at the same time with a cute laughter! :D she's 71 but she really looks younger than that. and she tells us how she could not work because of her weak knees and now earns very little from collecting cans and selling them. and she sounded quite sad as she mentioned how all her relatives dont keep in touch or visit her and all. and she kept praising us for being such nice people. it felt good to know that we touched her heart, though im not too sure if we managed to 'fill the empty spaces' in her heart because that is truly up to her relatives no? i guess i can safely say that i am more fortunate than her. yet, she seemed quite contented with karaoke sessions on a weekly basis and watching tv till she falls asleep every night. i guess happiness is something that is so intangible, like how some people from my og mentioned during the reflections time, that these people are so easily contented with what little they have, while some of us fail to realise how blessed we truly are.

so on the whole,O2 didnt feel too much like an orientation but i guess it was still enjoyable.

walk the line
i thought the movie was a pretty good biography of johnny cash and i really enjoyed it. it wasnt trying to make johnny cash sound flawless but yet it was apparent that he was a man with much talent. the violent nature of him and his dad sort of reminded me of daddy though. why cant men express their anger in other ways apart from slamming things here and there? reese witherspoon and joaquin phoenix can really sing, and i should say that she deserves her oscar (: thought im not too sure who the other nominees were.

and i got to meet with weijean today! :D i miss u babe u know i do and thanks for the nice long talk.

and to all the beloved darlings out there whom i care for so much, life has got great things in stored for us so dont ever give up when the going gets tough cause im here to lend a listening ear and a helping hand (:

alright i got into rj -whew- (:

posting results out tmr =X