i dno what im thinking but i wish i wasnt thinking so much. i just want to remain happy really. (:

watched prestige with agnes today. (: it was worth every cent.

(spoilers...) i keep thinking how they can give up their lives. how they can share A live. how alfred/fallon can let sarah die thinking that he did not love her whole heartedly(which is true to some extent, since magic was his first love). how he let olivia leave thinking he was cold hearted. (which is also true to some extent.) and how Angier can bring himself to kill himself. and for Angier to lose sight of the sole reason he was having this whole 'battle of the wits' thing with alfred. for him to say that his wife mattered no more and that he only cared about the trick. it's scary that the two of them exists. they are so...cold. so heartless. so caught up in the whole 'competition'. i think none of them are winners really. it's disturbing how cutter seems like the only person who could feel and think and not be engulfed by obsessions. and the cloning machine...the guy(tesla) who created it said something about how the world was not ready for it. how he had already tried to make changes twice. i guess we really arent ready for it. the world will be chaotic if everyone sees someone else(or rather themselves) who is actually a clone of themselves and can think and react the same way they would...
anyway it was an amazing plot and very well executed. i loved the twists and turns and the unpredictable storyline. i mean like i sorta guessed that fallon and alfred are lookalikes/super close(especially since alfred was so worried about fallon being burried) but didnt expect them to be brothers! cause the disguise was so well done and i couldnt recognise christian bale at all!

okay im off to bed. :D

hello all :D

been quite busy with RP and what not. slept till quite late today so im a happy well-rested girl now. :D

promos results turned out better than expected. so im quite contented. chem was quite the shocker. i was so sure i was gna fail. a bit surprising that physics is my worse subj though it's the one i practised the most for the most for. improved for all my subjs except Gp hmm. im just glad i got promoted. :D will work hard during the hols with my rainey shiney and sabbie. :D so anyway my final grades were BCDEE. compared to SSSU for common tests. not bad yea? haha. but loadsa ppl got more than 3 As lah, but no point comparing with others also heh. (:

production week's next week. than it's the hols. :D yay cant wait!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YURU!

streetdance streetdance streetdance for everyday except the weekends. yest prac was quite unproductive but today's turned out okay. (: somehow i feel it's cause ruth is there. when she isn't around we kinda slacken and not do full out and all. haha.

havent been getting enough sleep these days. i know i shld be catching up on my sleep now but it's the first night i havent got some other important thing to do since RP posters are completed so i thought i shld blog. (:

just read a friend's blog and it set me thinking. the thing about blogs is that people can talk about others with such anonymity you have no idea who they are talking about unless they mention name. and then it ends up like a mind game trying to figure out who she's talking about but it doesnt matter really what matters is what she's saying. anyway it is never really possible to know someone inside out and to know exactly what they are thinking is impossible. it's probably a common fear that people secretly dislike you behind your back but the fear and thoughts of that is something that i am learning not to entertain. afterall if someone decides to be a hypocrite we are never really in a position to judge and at the end of the day we know we did nothing to deserve the backstabbing and i gradually convince myself it's nothing worth feeling upset over for we don't need a friend like that. besides im sure the fact that everyone is a hypocrite, at some point or another, has been established a long time ago when girls decided that bitching sessions were a good way to bond. right now i don't even know what i'm saying anymore i think i shld just sleep.

watched littlemisssunshine on sat with shiyi and the family is really screwed up and dysfunctional but the bottomline is that they love each other so very much. i wish i could say the same about my family. actually i know deep down that we love each other but do we really need a crisis before we learn that daily gestures of love and concern mean more than anything else? for a recent survey conducted by ntu they asked how many hours you spend with your family. i wrote 0. i think about the time i stayed overnight at joyce's and the following morning was spent with the whole family reading newspaper in the dinning room. i know my dad cant help it that he works as much as he does and i really don't blame him and i know im not particularly sad that he's not spending time with us and im not dying to spend 'quality family time' either. (especially since it's a lifestyle i've gotten used to for 16 years and the only times we spend together usually end up in a quarrel) but still. im getting on fine on my own busying myself with everything i possibly can and i wld rather go shopping with shiyi than a family dinner. but still. talking about all this makes me feel/sound so unappreciative. afterall, i have a complete family dont i? i dno what im expecting from mummy and daddy either. if i did it'll prob be easier for me to understand why i feel sad thinking about such stuff. changrong says i dont wna get married cause i havent seen for myself how love lasts forever and how happy families work out. well maybe. maybe not. i dno. and i shall not think/talk about this anymore.
back to the movie, i thought it was pretty good though a lil absurd at some points. like too far fetched and all. but shiyi loved it. and it's got pretty good ratings on rotten tomatoes. so if you feel like having a good laugh and watching some feel good think deep movie, catch it! (: uh yea.

okay im babbling goodnight sweet dreams. open house on 13oct hohum my first performance in more than a year hmmmmm.

and btw weijean and val i miss u guys very very much. :D

i ended up waking up too late on sunday so i didnt go mx's house. sorry girl! went to sch for street dance in the afternoon and didnt meet sabbie for movie at night in the end cause she had to teach her bro at night. =(
dance was extremely tiring especially since i have not danced in forever. or excercised for that matter. heh.

had streetdance again yest morning then bathed in sch and then went to meet aggy at cityhall. she was late! =P so i went to gelare to eat lunch on my own first cause i was starvingggggggg. eventually we made our way to dashing diva and opted for the pampered diva pedicure. (: a bit pricey considering i couldnt really enjoy their services cause i didnt have much skin for them to exfoliate and i was too tickled during the leg massage heh. the place was really comfy though but we were the only ones there heh. aggy's pedicurist seemed friendlier than mine hmm. anyway mine recommended a purple shade of nail polish. it turned out too dark and looked a bit gaudy but now i look at it it's quite pretty i guess. hah. oh and my feet was really really soft after that. (: but i prob wouldnt go back there anytime soon. my mum said my feet's made of gold -.- went shopping around after that. spent even more money on food-dinner at foodrepublic, royce chocs and venezia icecream. still, i do not think im a pig. i deserve to eat after all that dancing! :D

rp end of year production publicity meeting this morn. was pretty productive but we've scraped so many of the ideas by now. haha. just did up a simple poster thing. i can see more photoshop work in the next week or so. which reminds i've been wanting to start on a new layout. just never had the inspiration. someone make me one?
had street dance again today i think i pretty much know the steps now. (: needs a lot more perfecting though. but my whole body has been aching the past 3 days i end up coming home and just reading a book on my bed and then sleep cause im too tired for anything else. anyway went to watch john tucker with the streeters today. i realised all of them are such cute and funny ppl. lol. im sorry sabbie&elaine i dnt think i'll be free to watch on thurs afterall! anyway the movie was funny :D:D:D

anyway THANK YOU ZHANGFAN for being there when i desperately needed someone to talk to last night and for meeting me on such short notice. (: it meant the world to me. i guess you are right we all get lonely sometimes and it's not cause ppl don't want to be there for us but they just cant. im just wondering what life will be like for me when i grow up and all my friends have their own families. maybe coping with loneliness is something we all have to face at some point of time. i kinda understand what muthu meant when he said about feeling like u need someone else on a night home alone on the train. i need to tell myself to count your blessings. rah been in such a comtemplative mood this weekend. i think i need to start work and busy myself so i stop thinking about nothing haha.

but anyway it's not like i need much help in getting busy. haha. rp meeting first thing tmr morn followed by streetdance all the way till 6(just recieved the sms. i thought it'll end at 4. guess i cant go have dinner with aggy and karen afterall.) thurs more streetdance and fri more more streetdance plus befrienders stuff AND phototaking for rp posters.

i really hope i find the time to attend one of the class outings though.
okay bye guys love you all. (:

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there's a very good reason why i don't do well in chem. and it's cause i dont like it. i didnt even feel like studying for it the night before and just went to bed with more than hlaf of the stuffs unlearnt. dance as a major? i wish. (:

class outing yest was fab. :D i liked Miami Vice though ppl like aggy thought otherwise. (it's really cause she didnt understand!) i just wished gongli and collin farrell. then there was dinner at new york new york where i had chicken chop. :D the place was fun and comfy. sadly we had to be seperated into two groups cause there werent enough seats for all of us. but it was a pretty good feeling squeezing in the green cubicle with xiaole changrong aggy sabbie elaine parker shalom haha. then we just loitered around flasnsplash and hmv before finally going home. fergie's hot!

i came home and read the girl's guide to hunting and fishing. i thought it was pretty well written. (:

woke up at 2 today and had lunch. granny cooked so much food. :D bummed around the house. it felt kinda...weird? i dno. it's been so long since i had a weekend to myself without having anything to do. (usually my weekends are spent finishing overdue tutorials/working) mum and grandma went to the hair salon. gibson went to church. aggy was out. sabbie went to visit her grandparents. everyone else are still having promos. i wld have wanted to go out i think. though initially i was excited about the thought of spending a whole day pigging out at home. it felt a bit lonely. or not. i dno. haha. did some online shopping. window shopping to be exact. since i still didnt manage to find anything to buy. went to the library after dinner and borrowed many books. (: i need to catch up on my reading haha.

going mx's house tmr morn. then street dance practise for open house in sch in the afternoon. john tucker must die with sabbie tmr night. :D i know she wants to have dinner together but she's all, "i'll let the greedier one decide." haha.

oh. i almost lost my hp again on fri. cause when aggy and i were cabbin home it fell out of my pocket. THANK GOD AGNES WAS ON THE CAB. when i realise my hp was lost i almost cried luh. my first instinct was to run. haha. i can only imagine what my dad wld have said. anyway aggy's such a lifesaver! haha. we're gna be exercise buddies and work towards being size 8.

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