streetdance streetdance streetdance for everyday except the weekends. yest prac was quite unproductive but today's turned out okay. (: somehow i feel it's cause ruth is there. when she isn't around we kinda slacken and not do full out and all. haha.

havent been getting enough sleep these days. i know i shld be catching up on my sleep now but it's the first night i havent got some other important thing to do since RP posters are completed so i thought i shld blog. (:

just read a friend's blog and it set me thinking. the thing about blogs is that people can talk about others with such anonymity you have no idea who they are talking about unless they mention name. and then it ends up like a mind game trying to figure out who she's talking about but it doesnt matter really what matters is what she's saying. anyway it is never really possible to know someone inside out and to know exactly what they are thinking is impossible. it's probably a common fear that people secretly dislike you behind your back but the fear and thoughts of that is something that i am learning not to entertain. afterall if someone decides to be a hypocrite we are never really in a position to judge and at the end of the day we know we did nothing to deserve the backstabbing and i gradually convince myself it's nothing worth feeling upset over for we don't need a friend like that. besides im sure the fact that everyone is a hypocrite, at some point or another, has been established a long time ago when girls decided that bitching sessions were a good way to bond. right now i don't even know what i'm saying anymore i think i shld just sleep.

watched littlemisssunshine on sat with shiyi and the family is really screwed up and dysfunctional but the bottomline is that they love each other so very much. i wish i could say the same about my family. actually i know deep down that we love each other but do we really need a crisis before we learn that daily gestures of love and concern mean more than anything else? for a recent survey conducted by ntu they asked how many hours you spend with your family. i wrote 0. i think about the time i stayed overnight at joyce's and the following morning was spent with the whole family reading newspaper in the dinning room. i know my dad cant help it that he works as much as he does and i really don't blame him and i know im not particularly sad that he's not spending time with us and im not dying to spend 'quality family time' either. (especially since it's a lifestyle i've gotten used to for 16 years and the only times we spend together usually end up in a quarrel) but still. im getting on fine on my own busying myself with everything i possibly can and i wld rather go shopping with shiyi than a family dinner. but still. talking about all this makes me feel/sound so unappreciative. afterall, i have a complete family dont i? i dno what im expecting from mummy and daddy either. if i did it'll prob be easier for me to understand why i feel sad thinking about such stuff. changrong says i dont wna get married cause i havent seen for myself how love lasts forever and how happy families work out. well maybe. maybe not. i dno. and i shall not think/talk about this anymore.
back to the movie, i thought it was pretty good though a lil absurd at some points. like too far fetched and all. but shiyi loved it. and it's got pretty good ratings on rotten tomatoes. so if you feel like having a good laugh and watching some feel good think deep movie, catch it! (: uh yea.

okay im babbling goodnight sweet dreams. open house on 13oct hohum my first performance in more than a year hmmmmm.

and btw weijean and val i miss u guys very very much. :D