physics test today didnt go well. i suppose i really shldnt care, what with ppl saying that the first three months is the honeymoon period, but mr raufie seems to be giving me a bit of extra attention, which is goodi guess but i dont want it hmm.
and i did something so dumb during phy prac today. plus i've broken a beaker and a conical flask during chem pracs so far. and i screwed up chem assignments so ms tang has been showing some concern with regard to my school work. it's times like this i feel kinda silly and dumb and i wonder if that is what people see. and if people ask themself where my prelims and olevels results came from, just like how i've been asking myself. and im just remembering how matt or wailumn would ask me to stop saying shit like that..i miss them!

chinese dance today wasnt very eventful, but was tiring all the same. though i wasnt running around or during anything close to increasing my heartrate, just being in the hall without the air conditioner on was kinda tormenting. anyway, im quitting it if im staying in rj. for a hundred and one personal reasons. ranging from my reluctance to wear a leotard to me wanting to find something else i or may not, i wouldnt know until i've tried enjoy more.

and i had nothing to do between 4pm to 5pm while waiting fr dance to start today..i wish there was like df to busy myself with..and seeing johnathan after school and yuhui around and knowing that i wouldnt be seeing them at rehearsals anymore just felt weird. and kinda sad i suppose.