sooo...i've been working for the past two days. (:
i get kinda irritated when there are a million customers and im the only one at the kiosk. -.- but i like it when im alone and can eat and watch the big lcd tv for all i want when there arent customers.
anyway nadia came to join me yest at 5pm. hmm. her boyfriend from indo, depri, is leaving on the 21st. so i kinda like asked her, "are you very sad" (okay lah stupid question) then she said, "hmm imagine that someone you love is leaving, will you be sad?" i was a bit surprised that she used the word love. like. i dno. when muthu first told me they were together(and told me that ferry and zareena were together) i was skeptical, like i kept wondering why they would get together when ferry and depri were only here to work for 6mths. like i never believed they could really really really be in love. i shouldn't be thinking like that though, i mean afterall my friends have boyfriends and i don't doubt their love right? maybe it's cause i find it impractical, seeing as how ferry and depri will leave after 6mths, maybe it's cause of the age gap(depri's prolly 20 sth and nadia's my age) ah i dno. im so closed minded. >.<
today worked with aunt mary. ah i feel quite bad cause initially i was pretty irritated that she kept disappearing. but she's really nice. like the motherly type. hmm. so i was telling her how i had to go home all alone at 11plus plus almost 12 last night and boarded a bus with only guys, and majority were like construction workers and i felt really uncomfortable. then she shared with me her experiences with them and how they are kind and un-ugly-singaporean-ish and that i should not be having a negative opinion of them at all. so i feel quite ashamed about it. ashamed that i judged ppl whom i dno and just stereotype ppl. reminds me of the times in dhs when besties were so racist. =/
anyway work turned out to be less of a bore than i had originally thought. i see many many new faces. maybe i'll have the chance to get to know them better? or maybe not cause im always at the koisk. hmm. so ferry and depri are leaving on the 21st. time flies lah. like i rmb when jimmy left i thought it was too soon. and now i cant believe it's ferry and depri's turn to leave. and i know for a fact that i'll never see them again. queer isnt it? the kind of ppl who walk in and out of your life. maybe i'll push back quitting for now. i dno. if i quit, i'll most likely never get to see my co workers again, small as singapore may be. and i'll never have another chance to make sandwiches or what not haha. working here has really been an experience that i cant get elsewhere. honestly my social circle is so small i wld never be able to meet friends from ite or normal tech or school drop outs. and there's so much we can learn from them really.

2.39 am. why am i not sleepy?

aggy's away in aussie. HAVE FUN! :D

and congrats on the completion of your ALEVELS joyce. omg the end of your school life! cant imagine that happening to me next year. =/

and and and i have a deep cut on my left forefinger now cause i tried to slice myself a pear for the first time in my entrie life cause there wasnt anyone else at home to help me and i bled profusely for almost half an hour and even now it bleeds as and when, though not profusely. rahh. im gna get myself some pear/apple cutting machine. =(